What a truly fucking bizarre day.
Blowfish got acquired for <300k usd to near $0.
But truth be told, it was funny more than anything. I laughed about it for like 10min, especially that I bought a bike in expectation that I’d make me a ton of money. But genuinely, it didn’t matter because my life doesn’t change with or without the money. Maybe I’d have bought an apartment at University District, but it is what it is.
I really took life too seriously, I guess we should all just enjoy the limited time we have more.
I was being kinda clingy today and asked vivi “hey wanna call”. I missed her voice. She said she was busy but she could take a 1hr break to chat in the evening.
It was a massive psyop, we called from 9pm to 2am. It was so wholesome; I don’t know why late night calls are so endearing, but they are. Late night conversations have to be some of my favourite moments in my entire lifetime. I guess it’s that one tweet that goes “biggest black pill I have for going to bed early is that 80%+ of defining moments that solidify relationships happen between 11pm and 5am”. Very true.
We talked about what each other’s type was; that we were overwhelmingly satisfied with who the other person was in ways we couldn’t really have predicted. She really likes my term “positive prediction error”.
Some of my favourite lines that I can remember (admittedly not much, given the timeline):
me: “hey didn’t you say you were selfish and you only prioritized yourself, you should really go to sleep” her: “yeah but i’m prioritizing myself in talking to you cuz i enjoy your presence so much”
her: “you know, maybe I was traumatized as a kid, but live laugh love, so whatever right?”
me: “when you said that you were into twinks, i was like ‘does that infer i’m a twink’” her: “yeah it totally does lmfao, you’re pretty skinny and soft”
I feel like she says a lot of things about herself, like that she’s really clingy or anxiously attached or something along those lines but I don’t see any of it manifesting; she’s super secure, and if anything, I’m the clingy one so far. She’s really such a joyous soul. I had a hard time believing it was real, but I really do now.
She’s so incredibly gracious; she talks about how she sometimes feels privileged for her life, and how she’s so thankful that their family has the money to buy things that she actually wants. I was really taken aback by this. I never felt significantly spoiled/fortunate in my life prior to meeting her; in some ways, it was perplexing how someone with her environment grew up to be such a happy, free-thinking, enlightened person. I wonder what she could do with a better supporting crew. She deserves the world.